Dearest Anna

Dear Jae,

How are you doing? How beautiful your babies are...I received the picture that Stacy sent, and I asked him to send me more pics! They really look gorgeus, congratulations Jae!!! I can't wait to see them and to hear all about you, your new life as a mum.

Sorry I have not been in touch lately. I am busy with this job I have in Milan, and I don't have internet at home so it is a little difficult for me to write emails during the day. Nevertheless, you and your family are always in my thoughts and although I am only now materializing my thoughts in a proper email, I keep you inside of me and time to time I talk about you with Elis. She is doing great by the way: just finished her first year at Goldsmiths college in London, where she studies History of Art. She got 2 summer internship, one at an Art Gallery, the other one at a Art Magazine in London. She is very excited.
Did you have the chance to watch a little of Italy vs. France soccer final? Italy won, and the whole country is now celebrating. I think celebrations will continue for long long time...yesterday the boys arrived in Rome, back from Germany. They have been received by the Italian president and each of them received a silver medal, a very important onorificience. Later, a bus took them to the crowd and it took them 5 hours to reach the final point, where the mega stand was, because the bus had to make its way through the crowd: at least a million Italians were there in Roma at the Circo Massimo to celebrate the boys.

On my side I am fine, busy with this job I have. As I told you over the phone, I am here because my direct supervisor will most likely leave soon, cause she will get married and move to France. I am in the marketing department of a medical device company, mainly distributing robots for minimally invasive surgery. I get to meet interesting people, to travel sometimes. The company gave me my own car (not a fantastic one, it is a FIAT - fix it again tony!) and I have a few benefits. I am on a temporary contract, which will expire next frabruary. Then, the company will have to confirm me or reject me..so I need to work very hard this year to keep this position. I have the feeling this company can give me a lot, and I like the field (medical robotics) as well as marketing.

On the love side Jae, I must say that I met a few guys in the recent past..at the moment, there are two guys that I like the most: one of them lives in Venice, his name is Carlo. He is a complete discovery for me, cause I met him at least a year ago...but never really paid attention to him..probably cause I might have not liked him much physically. One day though something happened, I got to meet him a little better and allowed him to get closer to me. It took me at least a month to kiss him! eventually I gave up, but did not "loose my head" for him right away, not at all! last week end was the first one we spent as "people seeing each other", and I had the best time ever..the best time. On saturday we spent the whole day on a boat trip with Cristina and Riccardo, went to eat those crabs (do you remember?) and spent the afternoon lying on the boat far away from the coast; in the evening we went out for dinner, the 4 of us again and had the best time..actually we spent the whole week end like this. But I feel I should go very slowly with Carlo: he is a very nice guy, a real gentleman, but the problem is me. I don't want "to loose my head" again, just as I did versus Danny. I want to live this moment intensely, but with my head still on my nek.
On the other hand, there is another guy I like: Matteo works in my same company, and we had the chance to spend time together in the recent past. I like him, although I really don't think there is a chance for us to go further. But it is nice to see him, to feel his presence, and to feel that I am not 100% into Carlo: this situation gives me a little of relief, do you know what I mean? I think at my relationship with Danny for example, and when I was with him..he was my life...I had to spend time with him, I had to see him every day otherwise I would have gone crazy: I had to breath his own air in order to survive...do you know what I mean? It ended up being an obsessive and un-healthy relationship, and only now I am starting to understand that kind of mechanism..only now after 2 years.
So I like the fact that I am facing my new life (the life "after Danny") in a different way: at the end of the day Jae, I am older, and I know a little more about myself.

I am spending a lot of time in Venice during week ends with Cristina, do you remember her? She often asks me about you, and she will be very happy when I will show her the pic of Jack and Charlie. She is back with Riccardo, although they are trying to figure out their relationship. It is a very strong bond, the one they have. Very rare, unique. Similar to the one you and Stacy have. And I like to see them together and to spend time with them, cause it seems like there is special energy coming out from them.

OK my dearest friend, I will now go for some dinner at my cousins', who live very close by.
I promise I will write you very soon, in the meantime I send you a huge hug Jae, I miss you a lot my friend and I will do my best to come over to visit you soon.
Much love
Anna

Dearest my friend Anna

Being a mother isn’t easy as ABC but it is a huge responsibility. However, I am enjoying this motherhood so much. I have never understood of this before. It’s like I was born as a brand new person, a different person but in a good way. You will understand when you have one of them maybe soon in the future. The boys are grown so much and I am relieved from the panic stress from the hospital treatment for the boys. I don’t get to sleep much but I get much more of happiness just having them here at my house.

Your job experience and life in Milan sound happy. I am glad that you have realized how important of balancing of your love life. See, I told you that you will learn lesson from the past relationship. You will be better at everything as long as keep in faith and try to balance in your life.

I don’t have either time to check or write e-mail to friends anymore but I always open my eyes on your e-mail letter in my account. I am so happy for you and Italy for winning the world soccer game this year. I saw many Italian flags dancing around the streets and happy faces of Italianos in California. They did a great job and I am so happy for them.

Please say hi to Christina for me and your lovely family. I know this year is little a bit hard for you to take time off and money of your own to visit me. You should not guilty about not visiting me this year because you are always in my heart and the boys. I rather recommend you to spend more time with Carlo and enjoy your limited summer off with him. I will send you more pictures of the boys later OK?

Love Jae